Here I am, looking at the monitor and furiously typing away because I desperately need to let all these thoughts floating in my head out otherwise I might lose my mind. Today, my life was sent down a spiral and people that I thought I could trust turned out to be just down to 2.
I cannot comprehend how vicious a human's heart can be when angered because today I was on the receiving end of the spite (usually I am on the other side of the rod). There was false concern and cold as plastic care which led to the destruction of friendship, lovers and well - my sordid little life.
What I am going through now, I probably would've already went through months before this but this familiar pain aches a little harder tonight for being put through something it didn't deserve, something that was judged on jaundiced eyes, thoughts and actions.
So here I am, letting the tears flow free and here I am letting words cut through me like a knife through soft butter. Here I am saying that I love you enough to forgive you and everything you've put me through and that by and by I will try my best to forget you.
In Jesus' name I pray for all these, amen.
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